A Moment of Pause.

by **Lone Wolf** Fri Jan 06, 2023 4:12 am

Ramblings.

I had a dream once
A dream that I used to guide my life
But in doing so is it the dream that guided me
Or Is it an idealistic wandering of an aimless mind

Am I content here this skin, this world
So many irritations all chafing my soul
all begging for my unwavering attention
Can I?

I was whole once
An innocent, until love tugged my heart strings
And I had them snipped
Do I miss them?
Do they miss me?

Oh that never ending self searching, that pointless trip
It's exhausting and I need a cane
The splinters of my crutch sting me
And the more I use it the weaker I am

It's all a lie to get to the truth
But the truth is failure, isn't it?
A listless never ceasing desire just to be me

But what is me? Am I "being myself"
Or am I the me I WANT to be
Am I not still me by being the me I want to be?
Am I not just fulfilling the desires,
the real me seeks so desperately to achieve?

Who can know thy self if thy self is unknowable?
Who can "be" themselves when their selves are so unachievable?

What is perfection?
Just another goal not to be achieved
Or is it better to fail by trying
Or do nothing and fail

"Life is wonderful if you don't weaken"